My computer fried…so this is why I haven't been writing lately. Believe me…it's has nothing to do with a shortage of happenings to write about. Things have been crazy the past month or so…no pun intended. I was hospitalized back in March…things were just out of whack and I was super depressed and suicidal. Then a few weeks after I got out of there I was put back in the hospital again for the same reasons…plus some psychosis. So yeah…the past month or so has been an interesting one to say the least.
Both times I was in the hospital they scrapped my meds and said lets start this from scratch and see if we can get some better results. The first round of this one was the worst…they did all of those changes and then sent me home after a week. Now if you know anything about psychotropic medications, you would know they take a few weeks to work. I was given a week and then sent home. I wasn't ready…but I convinced myself that the doctors new what they were talking about. We were all wrong.
Upon my second hospital visits I had the pleasure of meeting a really cool doctor. He was immediately furious that they didn't keep me very long and he was extremely concerned about some of the medication choices they had made. I took it all very lightly because all of these doctors have their own opinions about what does and does not work. But I did trust him…I mean the guy had been doing this longer that I've been around.
So I prayed that something would change because I was at my wits end. I was at a place where I wasn't sure I could continue to live in such turmoil. And then slowly things got better. I stayed there over two weeks and when I left I felt good. And I still feel good. And I hope it continues.
So I have a lot of new stories to tell and I'll be posting them just as soon, but for now I'm gonna enjoy the day,
Love, Randi
