Its Been a While

Its been a while. I have no idea where to begin. My computer back in March and it wasn’t until last week that I was able to get a new computer, so the lack of my own personal laptop is my excuse for not blogging in a while…it’s kinda hard to type a post on a tablet. So anyways life has not been quiet. I was put into the hospital twice this year…almost back to back and both times my medications where scrapped and we started from scratch. The first time didn’t work…obviously, because I ended up back in the hospital a few weeks later. But it would appear that the second time has been the charm. I am more stable on these medications than I have been on anything else. But that doesn’t mean I am perfect.

One of the medications that I was taken off of made me gain a lot of weight. I have to lose the weight and I am sure that most of you know losing weight is hard and it’s even harder for me than it should have to be because I have to deal with a knee injury and a foot drop. I’m trying…and I fail…a lot…but I am trying.

And the anxiety is real. I am anxious all the time…and sometimes I’m anxious for no reason at all. It’s hard, because then things that make sense to be anxious about are ten times worse than they should be.

In the midst of all of this anxiety I got approved for disability…something I didn’t think would happen as fast as it did…but I’m blessed that it did. Now that I’m on it, it takes a burden off of my family and it gives me the chance to focus on my mental health and physical health and getting better.

I also got accepted to go to graduate school online. Something that I’m both excited about and terrified about. I’ve never done online classes and the idea of doing an online degree is really scary to me.

So a lot has been going on. And every day is a challenge to get out of bed. But I’m trying. I’m trying to focus on the positive and I’m trying to make good decisions.

Love, Randi

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